I'm the same when it comes to me trying to figure things out on my own. I look up instruction videos, but don't actually listen to the instructions. I just watch what their doing, look at what I'm doing, and connect the dots. Maybe it's because it makes me feel like I'm only following instructions, and am still doing it myself. Like i'm putting together a bike, (cause why not?), and I've mainly just been looking at pictures of the bike, and looking up what type of things i'll need to make the bike look and feel newer. (Mind you, this is not a new bike. This thing looks like it's older than me.)

Once I put this bike together, that will lead me to being able to put together larger things like a car or such.